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Wednesday
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Words have spilled out over the pages of my journal to the point it’s a necessity to write. It’s no longer freeing or therapeutic, because the fucking second I get anything out on paper more information fills my head; as if it were waiting it’s turn in a queue to be heard. I hear you! and I’m sick of what you’re saying. You repeat yourself sometimes; and no I cannot change who I am for what you want me to be (or in most cases, need). I am not the type of girl that does the saving, and I don’t need to be saved. Or do I? Is that my subconscious telling me “ha okay, think what you wish; but soon it will be too late to see you need to be”. I always had pride in the fact I was strong and could not break but I’ve been broken. And that is very hard to admit, say, type, think…etc. It sucks knowing the core of who I have been 1)only ever thought about being something other girls were not (strong, independent in a sense) 2) that I am none of those things and very much need someone to be there for me. I’m going to fight the entire way and I’m going to be adamant about not needing you but I fucking need you, and I will probably never admit that to your face, but you need to know it’s true and it’s real and it’s not going away. I don’t want to say “needs saving” though because that implies I’m lost or in trouble or can’t do something myself; I feel though it’s BETTER to get there with someone else. Not wrong or right.. just better. Please don’t get me wrong I do not need someone to fight my battles or whatever your view of helping a damsel in distress is, I just need you to lay next to me at night and hold me; kiss me on my forehead and be there when I wake up. Just please fucking be there when I wake up.
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NickyThom.Com: Updates, updates, updates →
Hello everyone who is reading this! I apologize that all my blog has been lately is pictures and reblogs and nothing of real originality. I will remedy this by making this a sincere, heartfelt update! SO:
First and foremost I would like to thank everyone who came out to see the Vans Off The Wall…
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Trip 6/6
Rome. One week.
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Trip 5/6 Autumn 2015
October or November of 2015
DC to Barcelona
Barcelona to Pamplona
Pamplona to Madrid
Madrid to Lisbon
Lisbon to DC
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Trip 4/6 Christmas/NYE 2015
Christmas vacation and NYE 2015. Two weeks.
DC to Lima, Peru
Lima, Peru to Buenos Aires, Argentina
Buenos Aires, Argentina to Sao Paulo, Brazil
Sao Paulo, Brazil to Rio de Janerio, Brazil
Rio de Janerio, Brazil to DC
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Trip 3/6 NYE 2014
New Years Eve 2014
Glasgow, Scotland
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Trip 2/6 Fall of 2013 or Spring of 2014
DC to Glasgow (Plane)
Glasgow to Edinburgh (Train)
Edinburgh to London (Train)
London to Dublin (Plane)
Dublin to Dc (Plane)
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(via deja-brandnew)
